It is finally all getting to me! It is the breaking point, my grandfather is not doing well and the whole family expects me to help everyone get though this. Yes, I maybe one of the strongest women in my family, but I cant do it all..I'm about to pop with baby Mason any day now and can't take anymore stress or pressure. All I want to do is crawl in bed and be a hermit for a week. Yesterday was the first day I just broke down and cried and probably freaked the heck out of my husband and son. I need to get away for a day..any ideas ladies??
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Hey Jen,
So sorry that you have to go through all this. When I was 19 my dad was very ill and in the hospital for 3 agonizing months before he passed away. It was very hard; my heart truly goes out to you.
Don't feel bad for breaking down - you need to let go of the pressure. And doing so in front of those who love you is the safest place, even though it may be hard for them to see it...it's part of loving someone.
If you were here I'd be sending you back to the Allison; babysitting so you and Tob could do something special to get away or just giving you some space and letting you scream and/or cry until you had a chance to get it all out!
I hope you can get a little time to "escape". Maybe in small snippet if nothing else...watch a movie of your choosing in your room while your hubby takes Gavin out for a couple hours (maybe they could go a movie... or maybe you go to the movie out while the guys stay home and make you dinner). Or perhaps you can go take a walk on the beach, get caught up in a book, take a long warm bath....find your "happy place." Its ok to be happy even with so much sadness enveloping your life right now-I'm sure your Grandpa would want you to know that.
We are holding you... in thought and in prayer.
Love,
Mom
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